Back to the Drawing Board

When a door closes, a window opens.  The only problem is I have a few windows open, and the door never really closed.  Granted, there are screens in the windows that I need to punch out.  Difficult life-changing decisions.  Ugh...

I talked to my boss today.  And he truly is a nice guy.  Sure, we had a rough start in the beginning.  But what can you expect from a crazy, headstrong college student?  I'm just glad he puts up with me and is willing to help me with the research.  But anyways, come to find out, I will have funding for my Master's Degree if I so choose to continue with my Master's Degree.  So, that option is still open to me.

I feel a little bit better about it all now.  I thought I didn't have funding and that I was just a poor excuse of a bio-engineer.  Well, I'm happy to say that my department doesn't think that way about me.  And I guess I shouldn't think that way about myself either.

Anyways, now I don't know what to do.  The idea of not being dirt-broke is so appealing.  And I know I could go back and get my Master's Degree whenever I want and have the company pay for it.  I don't know what to do.  The idea of finally owning a house is very appealing to me.

I guess I could hope to get the best of both worlds.  One of the jobs I'm applying for is in Logan.  If I got that job, I could still continue with my Master's Degree at Utah State.  Granted, I'd be super-super busy and slower at getting my degree.  But I wouldn't be poor.  I'd be able to go to fancy restaurants with my husband, and we'd be able to have mini-vacations.

Cross your fingers for me.  Or pray.  Or think happy thoughts for me.  I know I'll be praying, crossing my fingers, and definitely thinking happy thoughts as I go through these interviews.  I know I'm an amazing person and worker.  The only problem is I also know my shortfalls and tend to think a little too heavily on those.

My Decision

So, I have finally come to a conclusion in my decisions...  I will not stay with Utah State to get my Master's Degree.  I have come to the conclusion that I don't really want to get my Master's Degree right now.  I don't plan on working in research either.  And the extra education I would prefer to get would be an MBA.  There is no financial aid or financial assistance from the university to get my master's.  And I refuse to take out a loan for something I only feel half-heartedly about.

Anyways, one good thing that occurred this week is I found out the results for the SWE elections.  I did get the Region Collegiate Senator position that I was hoping to get.  And I was really excited to do it, but I can't afford school.  So, I will be turning it down.  The good thing is it will be handed off to someone who I know will do an amazing job because she's all-around awesome when it comes to SWE (and anything else).

On to another note...  I've been applying for more and more jobs lately.  Last wednesday, I got a little depressed and went on a job application spree.  The good news is I got a response from one of the companies.  I have a phone interview on monday.  I hope it goes well.  I'm really hoping the company will be a good fit for me as well as me being a good fit with the company.  Either that, or I find that opportunity that's waiting for me...

We're in West Jordan tonight and tomorrow.  Enjoying the weekend.  Forgetting about school.  Forgetting about homework.  Forgetting about graduation.  Forgetting about job searches.  Forgetting about finances.  Forgetting about moving.  Releasing the stress...